I've been taking a break from the blogging for a while.
Some things have come up and, well, sitting down to write hasn't been either convenient or something I felt the morivation to do.
The house has taken a lot of energy, but in a good way. Our first home together, my first home of my own, has been an endless joy of sweat and aching. I've watched too many "how to" videos on YouTube and WAY too much HGTV and DIY channels!
This year has been amazing in so many ways.
And it ws the year I discovered that I had prostate cancer.
If you are a friend or family person who did not know until now, I apologize.
I'm not exactly sure what the etiquette is for telling people about such things. I've tried to call or email as many people as I could, although I do wonder why exactly I am doing so. I mean it's kind of awkward for me and them and really, what can they say? I still have a bit of leftover something from my past that wants me to avoid pity or sympathy or attention about these kinds of things. Icky describes it well.
Another weird part of it all is that I have no symptoms. I changed insurances and decided to see my new primary care doc for a physical. He ran a PSA test and it came back elevated.
From there I was referred to a urologist who thought my prostate felt firm and recommended a biopsy.
A week afterwards, my phone rings while I'm at work and Dr. White shares the results that I have cancer.
I'm in shock for a couple of days after I think. It just doesn't register.
Now, three weeks later, I've seen a radiologist and have three appointments coming up with surgeons to talk about treatment options.
The good news is that it's early and curable.
The bad news is that all the treatment options carry risk of complications.
As the Chinese say, "Crisis also means opportunity".
I guess I have to make the most of it.